you know what's really strange
how everything seems so surreal and you always think
ok that'll never happen to me not me because I'm immune to occurrences that happen to everyone else
and then it happens to you and it doesn't sink in
you just sort of sit there in shock wondering how you let your life become what it is
and whether you could've done anything to stop it
you probably could've
you definitely could have
it never sinks in
it will never sink in

excuse me

I'm going to use this blog again MAYBE but every time I use it it's just for a really emotional vent omfg this blog is so embarrassing I want to die a bit

I miss you so much and it's so pathetic

ok

I think I just need to like write down my thoughts about multiple people and multiple things right now because yeah

why do I bother getting up in the morning
I miss you so much but I can't be around you because it has such a terrible effect on me
I really wish I didn't have to be around majority of the people I am around all the time
I wish I could go back in time like 2 years and just live in that time frame for a while because I was miserable but I was still like happy idk how does that even make sense idk I wasn't this kind of miserable
I wish I could just erase my entire existence and pretend I was never here

o
k
cool

un-deletes blog just for the purpose of whining

I don't care I don't care I don't care oh my god just shut the fuck up ok look here's the sitch I hate everything and everything hates me cool ok we're set now please can I just die I just really really really really don't want to be alive anymore I am just so sick of it I'm just so tired of this whole life thing ok idk man

what

MY BACKGROUND IS EVAN PETERS OMFG WHEN DID THIS HAPPEN I'M LAUGHIGN SO HARD OK I'M DELETING THIS BLOG BY THE WAY HAH

happy birthday to me

I have a camera now cool why does this blog even exist what is the POINT