you know what's really strange
how everything seems so surreal and you always think
ok that'll never happen to me not me because I'm immune to occurrences that happen to everyone else
and then it happens to you and it doesn't sink in
you just sort of sit there in shock wondering how you let your life become what it is
and whether you could've done anything to stop it
you probably could've
you definitely could have
it never sinks in
it will never sink in