I'm quite sick and quite awake

I just want to get out of here and get out of this house and school and this place and just go somewhere else and just feel something else because everything feels the same now and I can't tell each day from the next.

they all just blend into one big mass of boring

I just really want to shut down

I don't want to think about anything

I don't want to have to try or make an effort

I just want it to stop

But I'm not going to do anything about it

I just want to fall asleep and dream about whatever I want and be perfectly content in my dream. Except that doesn't happen, because I'm still haunted for whatever reason by those dreams that don't bear any relevance to my life yet there they are in my subconscious.

So there's nowhere left to go, that I can really escape to

And I don't know what to do about that

Because avoiding all my problems is what I do best